Love...





Pics: Le Love



it's something you have to end... it's was hard. it hurt me so bad. few months ago i was steady, i was confident, i knew my next move. then it end.

i think, without knowing it... he was my everything. cliche.

but know i doubt, doubt and second guess my every new move. i am the child of self-doubt. i am the child of fear.

who knew that love could ruin. but there is love that would last. it's here with yourself.

love*

let slip....

i feel it...
i feel it, creep very slowly. slowly the will for mundane tasks fade, i start to fade, i start to pull away from people. you get the heavy feelings.
we'll i think i'm let slipping. i don't know how to make it better.

Le Love

things are heavy tonight.

Holy Shit... Scary Shit!

It comes down to this... it's crappy not fun and quite possibly the most pain you can ever experience.

this will make your stomach turn, it will make you gag awhile. but what i've heard and read, numberless and countless times. It will get better.

really???

well, it is going to get better, when you stop accepting the bad things, when you stop accepting the painfull people in your life.
it wasn't your kick and scream kind of pain. it was a deep sense of ending. something was ending.

but we don't want to end things because we want, we end things because we fail at the pain. we fail at the our own insecurities, we fail at our faith.

so basically we fail ourselves and we fail at others.

*love

it goes like this.....

Where do you start??

do you start with a good story?? do you start with... hi. i'm new! or do you start with a bang. Do yopu start telling about why your blogging, do you start telling the world something about this moment.... or do let it develop on it's own...

to my million questions... a self-generated and creatively stimulating decision was made... i'll let it brew! i'll let it sit for awhile, and let it take it's own course of action. why associate plants with my blog. strange.

just something that's on my mind.... what may lay ahead.