Packing Up....

the last has arrived. it has become clear and shining it's uncertainty. time has been limited.

i'm packing up. that simple.

18 days is what is left and not to forget. 4 xams left.
for the first time this year i am truely happy. this year or more the last few months have been unhappy days. but somewhere i found a piece of joy. my own piece.

the room looks craapy but actually quite serine. it feels peaceful. i had to start to shed the place last night. i was going to make this a process. i was giving enough time for grief. when (( )) asked why... i wasn't telling. this was my thing.

here is something to ask... i it fair to be mad at someone who has apologized, but the damage was done... is it fair?